90 Day Fiance star Darcey Silva insists Jesse Meester is the one who wanted their relationship more although he was shown breaking up with her on Season 2 of the Before the 90 Days spinoff.
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During an appearance at a Season 6 mixer for 90 Day Fiance in Los Angeles on Tuesday, Darcey told Us Weekly of her toxic romance with Jesse.
"I'm going to try to forgive and forget. There's bigger and better for me. He'll never actually admit in actuality what he wanted from me."
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Darcey was portrayed on the series as an insecure woman madly in love with a man who wavered in his feelings for and commitment to her.
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When Jesse flew from the Netherlands to the United States to break up with Darcey face-to-face, she was shown expressing optimism their love would conquer all and prevail.
Although many fans accused Jesse of being controlling, manipulative and emotionally abusive to Darcey, she appeared to take him back and giving him more chances at every opportunity.
"I knew he wanted something more out of me. It was insecurities on his end. Everything was opposite," Darcey said of criticism she was the weaker partner in the relationship. "Really, he wanted the relationship more. It was really toxic and hard trying to get out of."
Darcey and Jesse went toe-to-toe on Sunday night's Tell All special for 90 Day Fiance: Before the 90 Days, but the pair actually hugged it out in the end and wished each other all the best going forward.
And according to Darcey, 42, she has remained single since then -- and there's no going back to Jesse, 24.
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"The whole nature of our relationship was very up and down. We fought and then made up. To me, that was normal," Darcey told Us, before adding that Jesse tried to "paint a story" that made him "seem so grand."
The night before Jesse departed the United States, he went into Darcey's hotel room to check on her following their breakup. As shown on 90 Day Fiance: Before the 90 Days, Darcey insisted they had sex, but Jesse absolutely denied it.
"I came to the room thinking he wanted to make up from all the nonsense in our relationship. I didn't know he was coming there to break up. I was also going through personal things with my sister, which he embellished," Darcey said, likely referencing her arrest that Jesse often talks about.
In terms of Jesse's denial about their sexual encounter, she continued, "I think he wants the attention to be on him. It's just sad. I feel violated by that. I knew it was coming to an end. I fell for it, but, I'm not going to do it again."
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As for her two daughters, Darcey revealed they are happy and relieved Jesse is out of their lives.
"I don't need to talk bad about him. He's just weird. I felt like he hated me, he never really loved me," she confessed to the magazine.
Darcey and Jesse starred in both Season 1 and Season 2 of 90 Day Fiance: Before the 90 Days.
Season 6 of 90 Day Fiance with six new couples is set to premiere Sunday, October 21 at 8PM ET/PT on TLC.