Ali Fedotowsky won't reveal any specifics about if she found love at the end of her The Bachelorette journey, however she's pleased with the results.
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"I'm really confident with the decisions I made all along the way -- whether it was the third Rose Ceremony or the fifth one or the last one -- I don't have any regrets. I'm so confident with each decision along the way and I'm really happy right now."
It's a good thing Fedotowsky is in a good place since she said finding a husband was the No. 1 reason she decided to appear as The Bachelorette's star.
"I was so confident going into this that I could find my husband on the show. I would not have done the show otherwise," she explained to reporters during the conference call.
"When I was first approached to be The Bachelorette, I actually had a lot of concerns. I was happy in my job and I love being in San Francisco and I just didn't know if it was the right choice. I had a conversation with my best friends I'm living with now, and they said, 'If you find your husband on this show, nothing else matters.' That's when I knew being on the show was the right choice."
Fedotowsky was one of four remaining bachelorettes vying for The Bachelor: On the Wings of Love star Jake Pavelka's heart when she decided to leave the show to avoid having to quit her job at Facebook, which she had only begun a few months before the show was taped last fall.
"I do think that, at the time, it was the right decision in the sense that I don't think that I'm supposed to be with Jake. I think he found someone and he's with [Vienna Girardi] and he's happy and I'm happy for them," said Fedotowsky.
"But do I think that choosing a job over someone who's potentially the love of your life, do I think that's the wrong choice? I do. If I stayed, would I have ended up with Jake? I don't think so. I think he would have ended up with Vienna anyway. So in that sense I think it's the right choice. But I'm so glad that now I know that I will never, ever make that choice again. I can promise you that I won't."
Fedotowsky apparently chose a second chance to find her possible future husband over her job since she told reporters that she is no longer working at Facebook.
"I did leave my job at Facebook. At this point, I don't have plans to go back," she said.
"I hope to go back in the future, but it would probably be a while before that would happen. It's pretty final at this point, which is sad because I really loved it. I think at some point I'd be able to hopefully go back there, but I actually have some ideas for my own company that I'd like to possibly start."
While Fedotowsky initially decided to leave The Bachelor for her job, she subsequently changed her mind and attempted to return to the show during the next episode -- only to discover that Pavelka was unwilling to let her do so.
RELATED LINK: 'THE BACHELORETTE' COUPLES NOWFedotowsky told reporters that while Pavelka's decision didn't make her feel insecure heading into The Bachelorette, that doesn't mean she still wasn't scared of rejection.
"Did I fear of rejection on the show? I absolutely did. I think that's because I've been heartbroken in the past -- just not from my relationship with Jake -- but a lot of relationships I had even before being on The Bachelor," she explained.
"I think my big fear was I knew I was choosing each guy because I wanted them to continue with me. I didn't necessarily know because they were accepting a rose it meant that they actually wanted to be with me. So I questioned that along the way and I was scared."
In addition, Fedotowsky said participating in The Bachelorette gave her "so much more respect" for what Pavelka went through.
"I just remember thinking when I was on The Bachelor, 'Gosh! Why would Jake be insecure about anything? He has all these girls here vying for his attention. He has nothing to be concerned about.' Then being The Bachelorette, I get it," she said.
"People can say to me all day, 'I'm falling for you,' and, 'You're beautiful,' and all these words. But to me, I always found myself questioning them. Is this person being sincere? Do they really care for me? It was really important for me to make clear to all of the guys as we were going through this, 'I'm offering you a rose, but you're accepting it back. Don't accept it if you don't want it.' That was really important to me that the guys knew this was serious and not just a game."
The Bachelorette's sixth season will begin at a familiar setting for the Fedotowsky as she arrives at the same Malibu mansion where she first met Pavelka to meet her 25 suitors.
"I'm so happy with the 25 guys I got this season," she said.
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While the guys will do their best to make a good first impression on Fedotowsky, she told reporters that she feels first impressions don't really mean anything.
"I've always been the type of girl that when I go for a guy, it's because he's told me a story that's really interesting," she explained. "So I was so nervous that first night, I don't think I even remember a lot of the first impressions. It doesn't weigh that heavily."
Similar to other recent The Bachelor and The Bachelorette editions, each suitor will have the chance to vote for a bachelor they feels isn't there for the right reasons -- a situation that "shocked" Fedotowsky.
"I didn't really know what to make of it," she said.
"But at the end of the day, I remember thinking -- from my season -- I remember thinking that I had a better idea of what girls were maybe there for right or wrong reasons the first night than maybe Jake did. I definitely didn't want to let the ballot box be the be-all, end-all -- but I kept it in the back of my mind."
As if dealing with being wooed by 25 guys and wondering if they're all there for the right reasons wasn't hard enough, Fedotowsky than had to whittle her batch of bachelors down to 17.
"The only Rose Ceremony I would say I had any questions about at all would be the first one because I had so little time," she said. "You wonder afterwards, 'If I just had a few more minutes with that person, would I have realized something about them that I didn't see before?' That was the only Rose Ceremony that was really, really tough in terms of making my decisions."
For all of the subsequent Rose Ceremonies, Fedotowsky explained that she simply "went with the feeling" she had about each suitor.
"I never wanted to compare the guys. I just didn't think it was fair. Instead of comparing the guys and their qualities, I compared my feelings for the guys. I felt extremely confident each Rose Ceremony with the decisions I made and I never questioned them," she reiterated.
"The only real hard part was hurting somebody in order to find my ending, hopefully find my guy."
Fedotowsky traveled to Hollywood, Las Vegas, New York, Iceland, Istanbul, Lisbon and Tahiti throughout filming for The Bachelorette's sixth season, an opportunity she embraced.
"We traveled everywhere. The thing that was so great about the traveling was that there were places where maybe you wouldn't necessarily think to go on your own, like Iceland and Turkey," she said. "But I got to go there and I loved it."
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"We got so lucky in Iceland. We were there when the volcano was erupting, but not before the huge eruption," she said. "The volcano was erupting and you'll have to wait and see if we have any good footage of that."
Not surprisingly, Fedotowsky acknowledged there is some drama during the season -- however she declined to "get into specifics."
"There is definitely a bit of drama this season. Rumors are rumors, and whether there's truth to them or not I cannot say -- I actually haven't even got a chance to look at any of them on the Internet because I just got back," she said.
"But I went through a lot and there's a lot of emotion -- good and bad -- and it will be interesting to watch and see how it unfolds."
Fedotowsky also discussed the end of her The Bachelorette experience, which included the traditional "Fantasy Suite" dates.
"I know when I'm presenting those cards and the guys get those cards, I think we're so excited to be off-camera and be able to talk without the cameras around," she explained.
"It's the perfect opportunity. I didn't get any sleep those nights because we were up talking all night. I think it's really important those nights to building the relationship and taking it to that next step by just having those intimate conversations."
Fedotowsky said she also didn't follow in Pavelka's footsteps when it came down to how she felt about her final few suitors.
"Jake had a really big heart and he had felt that he had fallen in love with more than one person. For me, I don't feel like my heart is capable of loving more than one person," she explained.
"Going in, I sort of made a promise to myself that I really just wanted to make sure that I didn't share those type of feelings unless I was sharing them with one person and that I was completely positive that was the person for me."
While she hasn't had an opportunity to talk to Pavelka "at all," Fedotowsky said she didn't receive a phone call from The Bachelorette fifth-season star Jillian Harris.
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Although Fedotowsky voiced interest in starring in The Bachelorette prior to being cast, she explained to reporters that she had some hesitation when the role was offered to her.
"It was never something that I ever imagined I'd be asked to do, and I was really shocked when I was asked -- and nervous when I was first asked to do it. By the time I was approached, I feel like I was healed from the show," she said.
"In order to make my decision of whether or not I wanted to become The Bachelorette, I wanted to make sure that I saw the season finale of The Bachelor so I could just have closure with that and be ready to move on with my next adventure."
Fedotowsky also put reports she recently heard "suggesting" that she wants to have "children right away."
"That is not the case. I did say to Chris Harrison, he asked me where I wanted to be in five years, and I said, 'I'd like to be pregnant in five years' -- meaning when I'm 30, I'd like to be pregnant with my first child," she clarified.
"So am I ready for kids now? Absolutely not. I still have a career I want to build and things I want to accomplish before I start a family."
The Bachelorette will premiere Monday, May 24 at 9PM ET/PT on ABC.
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