Ashley Hebert believes bachelor Bentley Williams only saw her as a prize to be won.
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"An outsider might look at this situation and see a complete lack of social intellect on my part, and I understand that. However, when I look at my actions, I see myself as someone who was willing to give a person a chance to prove himself."
Williams -- the two-faced bachelor who feigned affection for Hebert when they were together but repeatedly bashed her in private before eventually deciding to leave The Bachelorette and break her heart -- returned to the show and talked to Hebert in Hong Kong during Monday night's episode, where he continued to express feelings for her all the while lying about his desire to pursue a relationship.
Hebert explained she hopes last night's broadcast showed viewers how her confusion over Williams had developed and worsened overtime based on his misleading comments
"I hope you were finally able to see what Bentley was consistently doing in each conversation with me. His ego and competitiveness made him want to 'get the girl,' but you know, as well as I do (now), that I was certainly not what he wanted," she wrote.
"But he continually fed me lines like, 'I didn't think I would miss you as much as I did,' and, 'Come to Salt Lake City.' It was only at this meeting that I was able to clearly see the way he would try to smooth talk his way into my heart and then attempt to crush it on his way out. Looking back, one would think that I would be fearful that my judgment was not intact. However, I am more fearful of the fact that there are men out there so convincing of untruth."
However, the former fifteenth-season The Bachelor bachelorette said she remains confident in her gut feelings and their significance.
"I still believe in my instinct, and most importantly I still believe myself... hopeful of finding a man who would never make me question myself, or treat another person with such lack of regard. So if you have any question as to whether or not I am ready, confident and in a great place to move on after this episode, please know that I am, and also know that you will never have to hear the 'B' word again," Hebert insisted.
While Hebert's emotional struggle with Williams seemingly only led to heartbreak and distracted her from actively finding love with the other deserving bachelors, she said her disappointment in Williams gave her insight on her remaining suitors.
"The truth is, it made me realize the caliber of men that I had, and it made me feel closer to them," Hebert explained.
In addition, Hebert also suggested that her search for love ended well despite Monday night's broadcast of a teaser clip which appeared to show the Bachelorette in tears at her final Rose Ceremony.
"In more ways than one, this episode marks the beginning of my beautiful, truthful, honest, genuine love story," Hebert wrote.
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