Married at First Sight couple Jamie Otis and Doug Hehner are apparently going through a "rough patch" and Jamie recently had to overcome a "mental breakdown."
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Jamie, 34, took to Instagram late last week and revealed she and Doug, whom she married on Season 1 of Married at First Sight, are facing adversity and major struggles in their relationship.
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"Here we are today -- 7 years married & we're going through another pretty rough patch. (Who isn't after a global pandemic?!)" Jamie captioned a slideshow of photos and videos through the years.
"I almost didn't share this here on my personal page. The weaker side of me wanted to kinda just hide it. I've never liked talking about mental illness or thoughts of suicide bc it's not who I want to be."
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She continued, "But I've also never been one to fake anything. I didn't plan on being so vulnerable on EP 121 of @hotmarriagecoolparents but it all just came gushing out."
Jamie admitted "it's too painful" to hear herself talk about her "lowest point" in life with the podcast's guest, life coach and relationship expert Dr. Gertrude.
"I had this mental breakdown a couple weeks ago and since then Doug & I have been really trying," Jamie insisted.
"We aren't giving up on each other. So yeah, our grass isn't always green. But we both vowed to water the ish outta it til it's vibrant with life again. #marriedlife."
On the May 17 episode of Jamie and Doug's Hot Marriage, Cool Parents podcast, Jamie -- who revealed she has two therapists and takes medication for her emotional issues -- explained how she's been feeling "overstressed, overworked, misunderstood and depleted" recently.
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Viewers could hear Jamie choking back her tears, saying she feels "an immense amount of guilt" when she spends so much time working and filming reality shows rather than focusing on her children.
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Jamie also believes her tough childhood in which she had to raise her younger siblings has had a huge negative impact on her current relationships.
"I often tell Doug that I feel like I have no one in my life, and not even him... who really cares me and loves me without needing something from me in return," Jamie said, adding that she wants so many children because they'll always love her unconditionally.
Jamie said, "I don't even feel like [Doug] loves me, but maybe that stems from me not loving me."
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Jamie admitted she's "in a rut" and "begging for help" and doesn't feel like she can rely on anyone else.
But Doug, 37, insisted on the podcast he has given Jamie his entire heart and soul and wishes she would believe that he adores her and would always "go through the trenches" with her.
"I hear him and he says everything right... but I have a really hard time trusting that everything he is saying is true," Jamie cried.
"I've caught him in lies before... Things you have done have hurt my significantly in the past."
Doug promised Jamie that she's never alone and it's unfortunate he can't change his mistakes in the past but the "good far outweighs the bad."
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"It's so hard for me to wholeheartedly dive back in and trust again... It's hard for me to be intimate and love [Doug] because I'm scared to death of being hurt," Jamie shared.
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Earlier this year, Jamie revealed on social media she and Doug began trying for a third child, and she even filmed herself taking a pregnancy test on the toilet in her bathroom.
Jamie and Doug married as complete strangers on Married at First Sight's debut season in 2014.
After losing a son they named Johnathan in 2016, Jamie and Doug welcomed their first child, Henley Grace, into the world in August 2017 and then battled through the pain and hardship of subsequent miscarriages.
The pair was therefore thrilled to announce in September 2019 they had Baby No. 2 on the way, and their son Hendrix arrived in a natural, home birth in May 2020.
The home birth was featured in a June episode of Married at First Sight: Couples Cam, which will be premiering its third season on Wednesday, June 2 at 8PM ET/PT on Lifetime.
Following their stint on Married at First Sight's first season, Jamie and Doug co-starred on Married at First Sight: The First Year, a spinoff which continued to follow the two MAFS Season 1 couples who opted to remain together during their first year of marriage.
Jamie and Doug also later starred on Married at First Sight: Jamie and Doug Plus One, their own spinoff which premiered in December 2017.
Jamie now serves as the host of Married at First Sight: Unfiltered, the show's post-episode discussion show that also airs on Lifetime, and she and Doug also shared commentary on Married at First Sight: Couples Couch.
Lifetime just wrapped Married at First Sight's twelfth season starring five Atlanta-based couples. The season spun out three successful marriages, while two couples chose to get divorced.
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