Olivia Caridi admits she considered killing herself after her stint on The Bachelor because of all the hate and backlash she fell victim to.

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Caridi, who competed on Season 20 of The Bachelor starring Ben Higgins, told the New York Post that the period between January and March of this year "was a really dark time" in her life and she even contemplated suicide.

While The Bachelor was airing, Caridi, 24, moved back home to live with her parents in Austin, TX. She was apparently so down on herself that she would just stare at the walls like a zombie.

"I was badly bullied as a child because I was overweight. It felt like I was in middle school again. I thought many times what it would be like if I wasn't alive,'" the blonde news anchor told the Post.

Caridi was offered a therapist once she left The Bachelor -- likely because several former franchise contestants have committed suicide in recent years -- but the hate mail just kept rolling in.

One person reportedly wrote her an anonymous message on social media that read, "You're the worst person, ever. You should die. No one would miss you."

Caridi started strong on The Bachelor having received Higgins' First Impression Rose and then several Group Date roses thereafter.

Caridi came across overly aggressive and confident, rubbing her fellow bachelorettes the wrong way and often offending them with comments they viewed as rude or condescending -- like when she told single mom Amanda Stanton listening to her stories was like watching an episode of MTV's Teen Mom.

Caridi, however, just insisted she was head over heels for Higgins and very focused on winning his heart. She cried at The Women Tell All special about how she never intended to hurt anyone or come across so badly.

Because she was so disliked in the house, the women talked about Caridi behind her back and poked fun at her appearance. Caridi was criticized for her breasts and alleged ugly toes and bad breath. Caridi was already dealing with strange insecurities such as her legs and "cankles."

Despite all the drama and hardships she faced because of the show, Caridi insisted, "It was worth it."

While her comment might seem surprising, she elaborated to the Post, "I'm one of these hopeless romantics. I thought it could happen on TV."

She would even advise other young women to appear on the show.

"If you're so inclined, go for it!" said Caridi, who has recently moved to New York City and resumed her career as a journalist.



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