The Bachelorette star Kaitlyn Bristowe says she was very serious about finding a husband at this point in the process, and so any guy that didn't make her heart flutter simply had to go.
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Starting with the Rose Ceremony, Bristowe said she was "extremely nervous," according to her People blog.
"I knew I had ruffled feathers, gone too far and confused people. That doesn't make for a seamless rose ceremony. That's almost an oxymoron... It was all just very overwhelming... I really didn't know whom I was sending home," Bristowe wrote.
"I wanted it to be there with Ben Z. But I just didn't feel like we were moving forward. He was always nice and sweet, and he's so handsome, but our relationship had stalled."
Bristowe alluded to the fact Zorn has a shot at being the next The Bachelor star. After all, Chris Harrison has seemingly been pulling for the 26-year-old fitness coach from San Jose, CA, since the beginning of the season.
"Again, I really wanted it to be there, who doesn't love Ben Z.? We all do, I just didn't see him as my husband. That's all. I'm sure 99 percent of women out there will!" Bristowe added.
"Saying goodbye to Ben Z. was crappy, I don't know how else to put it. I didn't want to see him leave, and I knew he didn't see it coming, but at the same time I didn't really either. But, like I said, compared to my other relationships, we weren't moving forward. I will say this: I would set him up with any one of my best friends or family because Ben Z. is a stand-up guy. I wish nothing but the best for him."
Bristowe explained that she wanted the night of the Rose Ceremony to be over before it even started because the moments leading up to it sat her on an "emotional roller coaster."
"Unfortunately, Tanner and I just moved at the pace of molasses in January. Okay, wow, did I just say that? I remember my fifth grade teacher saying that, and I haven't heard it since. But I feel like that applies here. Haha. I like Tanner. He is a funny character and a good dude. He's just not the dude for me!" the Bachelorette said.
Bristowe then had a message for Cupcake, especially since they had some "really great moments" together, including a helicopter ride over the beautiful landscapes of Ireland.
"I was really happy to share that moment with you. I could see how much you took it all in, and I was happy to enjoy that with you. Flying over the countryside was absolutely breathtaking. I was in awe the whole time... We landed and had a beautiful romantic picnic on the cliffs," Bristowe began.
"It was in that moment that I took a step back and wasn't sure where my heart was with Chris. I knew Chris was exactly what I was looking for, and I knew I liked him. He told me about his family and where he came from, and he is ridiculously good-looking. He's a gentleman... I could go on and on... But, at the end of it, I just didn't see him as my forever, and I promised myself I would [not] lead anyone on."
RELATED LINK: 'THE BACHELORETTE' COUPLES NOWBristowe admitted the easy thing would have been to finish her date with Cupcake and then fly back and go to sleep happy.
"But that wouldn't have been right. It was HARD to leave him and say goodbye. I questioned why I was doing that and what was wrong with me. But my heart told me that was the right thing to do," Bristowe confessed.
"And, as we all know, sometimes the right thing is never the easiest. Watching him cry broke my heart. That was a tough day. I also knew in that moment that nothing about this journey would be getting any easier... You'll see next week as it provides its own set of challenges and difficult choices."
The next The Bachelorette episode airs Monday night, July 6, at 8PM ET/PT on ABC.
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