The Bachelorette star blindsided Jason Tartick and broke his heart during Monday night's Season 14 episode on ABC.
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"I'm pretty shocked. I didn't see that coming. It sucks. It's a tough feeling, a tough feeling. It's difficult to comprehend. I just don't really have the answers to things and I really wish I had more," Jason said after Becca sent him packing.
"To know I may not see that smile that I fell in love with, all those special things again, it's tough. But I'm not regretful of anything. I'm not regretful of how I communicated my feelings, and I can leave this journey knowing I put it all on the table."
The Bachelorette broadcast began with Becca, Garrett Yrigoyen and Blake Horstmann arriving in Chiang Mai, Thailand for a week of dates.
"I am in love with two men and falling in love with a third... I'm just hoping to have some clarity, because at the end of this, I'm going to have to break two more hearts," Becca said, later adding that she was "in love" with Garrett and Blake.
Becca was smitten with Garrett, but she wondered whether he could push her and challenge her to be her best self. She also wondered if what they had could last forever.
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With Jason, Becca felt they had a wild and crazy romance and that their chemistry was "off the charts." She knew he would be her partner and best friend in life.
Becca added that she felt herself around Blake and their relationship was effortless. Becca couldn't imagine not having Blake in her life.
The first date of the week went to Blake, and the couple hiked down a beautiful path called the Monk's Trail. The pair were told they must respect the rules of no kissing or touching of any kind while exploring the pathway.
The affectionate couple considered this a challenge, but Becca quickly realized their bond was much deeper than just having good physical chemistry.
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Knowing Becca appreciates honesty more than anything, Blake decided to open up to Becca about how difficult this journey was becoming for him given she might have similar feelings for one or both of the other remaining men.
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Blake had a tough time picturing Becca with the other men -- kissing and holding them -- and he was afraid she was falling for someone else.
At dinner that night, Becca admitted to Blake she never questioned what they had and they only took steps forward, never backward. But because things were so good with Blake, Becca was more scared to lose him, and she wondered if what they had was "too good to be true."
"I feel stronger for you and am more in love with you than I was with my ex," Blake told Becca, explaining that he would be devastated if she let him go.
Blake couldn't imagine the other guys cared for Becca more, and Becca assured him that they had the most solid and stable relationship of the bunch. Neither individual felt hesitant about committing to each other or getting engaged.
"I'm the kind of guy who looks for a reason to stay, not a reason to go... I love you, a lot, and I can see our future," Blake told Becca.
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With that being said, Blake accepted Becca's invitation to the Fantasy Suite. Blake made her feel safe and secure, and she knew he'd be the same man the next morning. She was ready to spend the night with him and wake up next to him.
The next morning, Becca felt even more in love with Blake than ever before. Blake, who couldn't care more about Becca at this point, said she made his heart pound and he got nervous about her.
"Things are just so good between us. There's no way she has this with another guy. There's just no way," Blake told the cameras.
The following day, Becca embarked on a date with Jason. The couple shopped and wandered around a bustling outdoor market in Thailand.
Jason loved so many things about Becca, like how charismatic and strong she is. He also appreciated how they could open up to each other and discuss emotional things.
"I have found my best friend, my partner, and whom I want to be my fiance," Jason told the cameras.
At one point, however, the couple playfully mentioned wanting to decorate Jason's condo in Seattle with a piece of stonework they came across, and Becca realized in that moment she couldn't actually picture that future with Jason. In fact, she wished she could take the comment back immediately after saying it.
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Becca felt weird and excused herself from the date for what seemed like 20 minutes. Becca was having the best time with Jason, so she didn't know why she was having this sudden meltdown.
That night at dinner, Jason was so relieved there was a Fantasy Suite invitation, not a rose up for grabs.
Jason gushed to Becca about how he loved her with such confidence and his family was taken with her. He could envision her as a wife and the mother of his children, but Becca clearly felt off.
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"It's not fair to keep him around if I can't see him at the end," Becca noted.
Becca then told Jason she didn't know what was wrong with her, but she couldn't put him through an overnight date if her feelings weren't 100 percent there. Jason advised Becca not to close the door between them unless she felt completely certain.
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Jason asked Becca to continue exploring their relationship and see what they could have together. Even though Becca saw more of a future with Garrett and Blake, Jason said there was still a lot of time left and she could potentially get to that place in their romance.
Becca hated blindsiding Jason. He appreciated her honesty, but he was hurt and in pain.
"I came here rooting for your happiness and I'm going to leave rooting for your happiness, and I hope you find it," Jason told the Bachelorette.
After Jason left the date, Becca vented in tears, "What did I just do?! What am I doing?! He did not see that coming. He must be so confused."
"I couldn't put into words why I'm feeling this way, but I couldn't do it and go through an overnight with him if I know it's not him," she said.
"And I don't know what it is. What am I doing? And he's such a good guy! I've dated terrible people in the past and he's such a good person. Jason is one of the best men I know, honestly... I literally just did to him what [Arie Luyendyk Jr.] did to me."
Once Becca gathered her emotions and put herself back together, Garrett accompanied her on the next one-on-one date.
The couple navigated a bamboo raft through the crowded river. While it wasn't the most romantic date, Becca and Garrett had great team work and ended up having a blast together. Garrett acknowledged he had become a better communicator during this process, and he was starting to wear his heart on his sleeve.
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Becca felt right with Garrett, and being with him made her realize she had made the right decision with Jason. However, she was still waiting for Garrett to say he was "in love" with her.
Later that night, Becca and Garrett enjoyed some wine in an intimate outdoor setting.
Garrett admitted he almost didn't go through with The Bachelorette process due to a fear of getting engaged and it not working out again, but he said he never expected to fall so hard and so fast for Becca.
Garrett said he tends to bottle up his emotions and get inside his head, but he was finally certain he was doing the right thing by dating and pursuing Becca. He was willing to support her dreams and goals and relocate for her to make sure she was happy. After all, Becca confessed Arie had kind of wanted Becca to fit into his pre-existing lifestyle.
"I've never felt this genuinely happy in my entire life, just the way you smile and laugh and make me feel... And seeing how you interacted with my family, I realized how much I truly do love you," Garrett gushed to Becca. "You make me very happy, and I hope you're the last woman I ever have to say that to."
"I'm already there with him, so this tells me that we are on the same page," Becca noted.
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Garrett then joined Becca in the Fantasy Suite, and he could read through her kisses that she reciprocated such feelings of love. He said she was making him become a better man and it would be incredible to maintain what he was feeling for the rest of his life.
"When I look at Garrett, I see my heart's equal, and I see someone who will make a great father and a really loving husband. I think I will be able to rely on him no matter what... and there is something very special about him," Becca said.
Waking up next to Garrett the next morning, Becca acknowledged she had made leaps in their relationship. She felt so lucky to have him, and Garrett said his date with Becca was the best day of his life. Garrett had never been so happy in his "entire life," and he felt like he was floating.
Before the week's Rose Ceremony, Jason surprised Becca with a knock at her hotel room's door.
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Jason insisted to Becca his feelings of love had been genuine for her and she opened his heart up like never before. Because of those reasons, however, Jason was torn up inside, and he was trying his hardest not to cry and break down.
Becca assured Jason that he's an amazing guy, and the conversation ultimately gave Jason closure. On his way out of her hotel room, Jason gave Becca a beautiful scrapbook he had crafted for her.
"The world needs more Jasons. I've never seen any guy be like that, especially after being blindsided. I knew he loved me, because he told me that, but I didn't know the extent of it," Becca said.
"I really hope he finds somebody, and I know he will, and she's going to have to treat him like a king. He deserves only the best."
The episode concluded with Becca handing out her two remaining roses to Garrett and Blake.
"I can't see one over the other at this point, and it's really scary," Becca noted.
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