'The Bachelorette' star Andi Dorfman: I don't like the term "frontrunner," I'm not a prize to be won

The Bachelorette star Andi Dorfman has opened up about her nerves with Josh Murray, her issues with Nick Viall's "frontrunner" talk, and what viewers can expect to see next week.      


"I was extremely nervous going into [Josh's] date because I always had my guard up with. I didn't quite know why I got so nervous around him, but I was hoping to conquer those nerves on this date... [But] it was incredible to say the least. I enjoyed the fact that both Josh and I were willing to open up about our past relationships, especially when it came to our insecurities regarding faithfulness. I think it was something that Josh and I bonded over," Dorfman wrote in her People blog.

"I remember taking a deep breath and telling Josh that for the first time, I felt like I was letting my guard down with him and was allowing myself to enjoy our great connection. I gave the rose to Josh because not only was the physical connection there, but we were getting to know each other on a whole new level... From start to finish, the date was perfect and one I would never forget."

The group date on the other hand, which featured nine guys learning how to mime, took a different turn.

"I know it's hard to adjust back to group dates, but I remember really not liking Nick's standoffish behavior. Little did I know that that would follow through the evening as well," Dorfman explained.


"As soon as I walked back into the cocktail party I could feel that something was off with the guys. I started talking to them individually and I got the sense that there was some tension between the guys and Nick -- specifically that Nick had suggested to some effect that he was the 'frontrunner.'"

Dorfman apparently wasn't a fan of Viall's comment.

"Obviously I don't like this term, because it made me feel like this was a competition and that I'm a prize... You cannot win me! Needless to say, I was not happy at the turn of events that night. Giving the rose to [JJ O'Brien] was the obvious choice that night," she wrote.

Dorfman was then very excited to go on her one-on-one date with Brian Osborne, who had stood out to her ever since they shared their first passionate kiss on a basketball court. However, the second part of their date in which they cooked dinner together went terribly wrong.

"Let's just say it was far from hot in that kitchen," Dorfman said.


"The frog legs did not turn out well at all. In fact, Brian and I ended up playing with the frog legs and flipping them in the air. It was hilarious! Even though Brian and I were lacking chemistry while we were cooking, I wanted to give Brian the rose because I knew that the Brian that kissed me in Connecticut was still in there. We had been building a strong and steady relationship and despite the date not going perfectly, Brian was still someone I wanted to get to know better."

Once it became time for the cocktail party, Dorfman quickly realized it was completely unnecessary. She had already made her mind up on whom she wanted to keep in the competition.

"I had thought long and hard about whether or not to have one. The truth was, I never liked the Rose Ceremonies. The cocktail parties beforehand are also difficult as there is so much stress and nervousness that's put on everyone. I thought if I already knew who I was sending home, there was no reason to put the guys through another cocktail party. So I decided to spare everyone and just kind of rip off the Band-Aid," Dorfman wrote on her People blog.

"What you didn't get to see was right before I handed out roses, [Cody Sattler] pulled me at the last second to tell me how badly he wanted a rose. I really loved that he had the confidence to do that, and he really let me know that he was here for me. What Cody didn't know was that I was always going to give him a rose that night. It was sad to see Andrew, Patrick and Marquel leave, but I knew my connections with the other men were much stronger."

As far as next Monday night's episode goes, Dorfman teased things will "get very interesting."


"I put the guys through a lie-detector test. Let's just say that it definitely brought out some secrets," the Bachelorette hinted.






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