The Golden Bachelor's senior bachelorettes all appeared to largely adore the show's star, Gerry Turner, in one way or another -- except for April Kirkwood.
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"I really wasn't feeling the connection to Gerry... I'm glad he's not my guy. I don't look like I belong on a wedding cake with him," April admitted to former The Bachelor star Nick Viall during a recent episode of his "The Viall Files" podcast.
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The 65-year-old therapist from Port St. Lucie, FL, said that when she first met Gerry, she thought he was "well groomed" and "good looking," and she added how his blue eyes were "dazzling" and he was certainly "his charming self."
But by the time Gerry chose to eliminate April at the fourth Rose Ceremony of the season, she was apparently relieved -- and not surprised at all by her ouster.
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According to April, Gerry had "ignored" her during filming, which she found very offensive.
"Now, there were times when Gerry and I talked and he just seemed to look right past me," April claimed.
"And as a counselor, I'll tell you the meanest thing you can ever do to any human being is ignore them, and that did hurt my heart."
April elaborated, "I mean, tell me you don't like me, tell me you think I'm a bi-atch, tell me I'm naive or I'm sweet, whatever. Tell me anything, but don't ignore me... I will never ignore anybody."
April apparently wanted Gerry to make her feel like she was "alive," and that she mattered.
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"[His behavior] hurt me a lot, and he did it constantly to me. There was nothing I could do," April lamented on the podcast.
For starters, Gerry allegedly had "no reaction" when April rocked a bunny tail on the back of her Rose Ceremony dress on Night 1.
And April -- who has a self-proclaimed "eccentric" and "quirky" personality -- claimed that Gerry didn't get her jokes, nor did she feel she could have fun or be playful with The Golden Bachelor star.
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April also pointed out how she and Gerry have "very different" lifestyles and hobbies.
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"I don't like muddy ponds. Indiana is not my thing. I'm not from money, that's for sure, but I do have a different lifestyle, and I love it," April shared.
"I live in South Florida and I'm willing to share that with anybody I fall madly in love with. But I could see that this was going to be a real challenge, putting that nicely."
April and Gerry apparently couldn't even see eye to eye on their musical tastes.
April gushed about how she loves Taylor Swift and Harry Styles, whereas she discovered early on that Gerry enjoys listening to Dean Martin.
"There seemed to be an age difference, even though there isn't. I think age is a mental state," April reasoned.
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"Even if I don't live young, I like to think I live young... For the most part, I'm out there trying to find my passions in music in life and in dancing, song, and movies."
Even though April felt rejected by Gerry for weeks, she said appearing on The Golden Bachelor made her a "stronger" person.
"Because now I know that I will be more forward in telling people, 'I see you, I know you, you are loved, you are important,'" April explained, later adding, "There's no reason to be nasty or cold or rude or dismissive."
In addition, April shared with Nick how being on The Golden Bachelor made her realize that she's truly ready to find her guy.
"I'll know it [when I meet him because] I fall in love right away. There's certain things that I attach to somebody and then I go [all in]," April explained.
"Had [Gerry] been somebody like that, when I lose all my brains and everything I've ever learned goes out the window, I would have been a maniac."
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April admitted that if she really liked Gerry, she would have been "ripping off my panties and running and dancing" around The Bachelor mansion to get his attention.
"I would've been pushing people out of the way, knocking them over!" April joked.
Gerry, meanwhile, wasn't exactly crazy about April either. Earlier this month, Gerry said during an appearance on Live with Kelly & Mark that he found it "annoying" when April had faked her ankle injury.
Gerry's journey on The Golden Bachelor is now winding down, and he has only two bachelorettes left in the running for his heart: Leslie Fhima and Theresa Nist.
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While viewers are probably not surprised by Gerry's final picks, April confessed that she was shocked Gerry had let Ellen Goltzer go before hometown dates.
"But, you know men, sometimes they think in the kitchen area," April quipped. "One thing I learned: Men are men [and] whether 70 or 17, they're all driven by hormones."
April, on the other hand, claims to be driven by love -- and she may not have trouble finding it.
April said she received nearly "a thousand" DMs from men once she returned home from filming.
"[One man] was good-looking and gorgeous and he's around my age and he's hot and well-traveled!... I definitely am looking for love, [but] for me it [needs to be] very organic," April noted.
The Golden Bachelor's finale is set to air on Thursday, November 30 on ABC after a break for the Thanksgiving holiday.
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