Corrie Adamson claims she knew Jake Pavelka was cutting her loose even before the Rose Ceremony seen on Monday night's The Bachelor: On the Wings of Love broadcast started.

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"I knew going into that Rose Ceremony that -- when we all lined up and stuff -- I knew I was going home," she told reporters during a Thursday conference call.

"Because [of] some of my and Jake's conversation on our [one-on-one] date.   We talked about the [overnight] fantasy suite [that would have been coming up] and I wasn't willing to do that and I know [it] was important for Jake to get that alone time.  And because our relationship was underdeveloped compared to the other girls that would put me even farther behind and so I just knew that he knew that I wasn't going to be where he needed me to be."

According Adamson, a 23-year-old wardrobe consultant from Kissimmee, FL who is saving herself for marriage, Pavelka said her unwillingness to accept the overnight date with him was a possible "deal breaker."

"When I told him I wasn't going to -- because that conversation came up after the conversation about me being a virgin -- and he said 'You know, fantasy suites are coming up, is that something you're going to do?' and I said, 'No, it's not' and I said, 'Is that a deal breaker for you?' and he said, 'It might be,'" she told Reality TV World during the conference call. 

"And he said, 'Not because I want to have sex with you but because I need that off-camera time to get to know you."

While Adamson said she doesn't see anything wrong with going behind closed doors just to talk, she knows how the overnight date is often perceived by viewers and didn't want to be the subject of speculation.

"I don't think there's anything wrong with hanging out alone with a guy behind closed doors in any way.  But I've watched the show from the first season and you don't know what goes on behind those doors and people do wonder, 'Are they having sex? What is going on?'" Adamson told Reality TV World. 

"And because I'm saying I'm a virgin, I'm not going to have sex, I didn't want to give people any room to doubt that or for it to look like I'm saying one thing but I'm doing another."

While Adamson said she feels disclosing her virginity did "not necessarily" impact Pavelka's demeanor towards her, she does believe it probably contributed to his decision to eliminate her.

"I feel like in Jake's head he maybe associated it with me being young and not having life experience, which that decision has nothing to do with my age -- if I was Jake's age and still single I would still be a virgin," she told reporters.

"It's not because I haven't had opportunities, because I have. And it's not because I'm young or immature.  I think it takes a lot more maturity to put it off... I don't necessarily think his demeanor changed but I think in his head he saw me younger after that."

Adamson said that while Monday night's The Bachelor broadcast didn't show it, she did get upset after her one-on-one date in which Pavelka asked her about her virginity.

"I did get upset after that conversation.  The conversation didn't really happen exactly the way you guys saw it.  The question actually came out of nowhere, we were not talking about living together [like the episode showed] when that question came up and it caught me so off-guard," she explained to Reality TV World. 

"That was mine and Jake's first date and that is something that is very personal and it's not something I go announcing on my first dates with guys.  Not because I'm not proud of it, because I am, but because it is personal.  So it caught me off guard and it did upset me just because I didn't feel like it was the right timing to be having that conversation and I didn't think it should have played a factor in how he saw me."

Adamson reiterated the topic "literally came out of nowhere."

"[He] asked 'Had I ever had a one-night stand?' and I said 'No,' and then he said, 'Oh, are you saving yourself for marriage?' and I said 'Yes, I am.'  I mean that was the conversation," she told Reality TV World before adding she was surprised when the subject was broached.

"For first dates I don't think that's a first date discussion."

In addition, Adamson said she was initially not happy that her virginity would be coming out on national television because it would be "something that's just out there for everyone to know."

"In my past relationships, the guys that I have dated who have not been virgins [and] have not had the same opinions that I have, have still really appreciated that and liked that about me.  And that is something that I want to be able to tell the person I'm with so it was a little frustrating that now I don't get to tell, they just already know," she explained. 

However now that it has happened, Adamson has a different view on the matter.

"Even though I didn't initially want it coming out on the show I think that it ended up being a good thing," she said.  "I've gotten a lot of emails and messages from girls that have just been like, 'Thank you so much, you have given me confidence as someone who has made that same decision,' and it's not always a popular decision."

In addition to being a virgin, Adamson was also the last remaining bachelorette to kiss Pavelka -- and she can only wonder if it played a role in her exit.

"It may have played into that," she said before adding she had no regrets about not kissing him prior to the one-on-one date shown on Monday night's The Bachelor broadcast.

"That was mine and Jake's first date and I wasn't even about to kiss him on a group date where he was kissing other girls a minute before and after me."

In addition, Adamson said it wasn't like Pavelka didn't have an earlier chance to kiss her -- specifically during the rowboat ride they had shared at the beginning of their one-on-one date.

"In real-life the boat ride was not awkward, it was actually my favorite part of the day.  We laughed a lot and had a lot of fun but you didn't see that," she said.

"At the very end there was a point where he could have kissed me and I'm a really hard girl to read for girls and because I'd been so standoffish I think Jake didn't know if I wanted him to kiss me or not, so he didn't.  But he had the perfect opportunity and he didn't take it."

Adamson stated several times during the conference call that her personality is let guys go after her, so she was just being herself on The Bachelor.

"There's a lot that you all didn't see but I was totally myself as far the way I am with guys," she said.  "I don't go after guys, I let them come after me."

Adamson added that the "big personalities" of some of the other bachelorettes might have overshadowed her in Pavelka's eyes.

"A lot of girls have strong personalities and they kind of dominated our time with Jake and so for me I'm just not loud and, 'Look at me!' and so I think in a way Jake didn't get to see how easy-going I am and how much fun I have and how much I laugh and that kind of thing," she told Reality TV World. 

"And [in] his defense, how hard is it to pay attention to eight girls at one time?"

Adamson pointed to the fact that she made it to the Top 5 as proof that playing hard to get wasn't a terrible strategy.

"I wasn't chasing after him.  And there were girls too that went home before me that were chasing after him, so I don't think that that held me back too much," she said.  "I think that at the end of the day that I just wasn't the girl for Jake and had I been the girl for Jake I don't think that that necessarily would have [mattered]."

Adamson also said that unlike some of the other remaining bachelorettes, she had not developed very strong feelings for Pavelka.

"When I left I felt very much like me and Jake had just had one date.  Our one-on-one date to me was very much a first date. So my feelings for him were not extremely developed and I was behind the other girls in that," she said.

Pavelka's subsequent conclusion that Adamson wasn't the girl for him was mutual, according to the bachelorette. 

"Jake will be a catch for whoever he ends up with. He is a really nice guy. [But] not the guy for me."

Adamson had a hard time providing specific examples as to why Pavelka wasn't the right guy for her before eventually settling on a simple answer.

"We just didn't click," she said.

While her first one-on-one date only occurred late in her The Bachelor journey, Adamson said she had not been concerned.

"Jake told me that, 'The women that I'm sure about are going to get less time in the beginning and I'm kind of putting you on the back burner because I don't have questions about you,'" she explained to reporters. "I took it for what he said."

Adamson said she landed on The Bachelor after being nominated by her best friend.

"When I sent in my video and stuff I did not know that it was going to be Jake.  But before I had to commit -- a couple of weeks before the show started -- then they told us who it was going to be.  And it being Jake was actually a deciding factor in my decision," she explained.

"They had told us the three guys it would be between and I had kind of already in my head gone 'Okay, if it's Jake then I'll do it' because [former The Bachelorette fifth-season suitors Reid Rosenthal and Kiptyn Locke] had both proposed to [Jillian Harris] on TV and had clearly fallen in love with her.  But also because I knew that Jake was a good guy and did have good character so he was someone I knew that I that potentially I could like.  And I thought that he was hot!"

Just because she was unlucky finding love on the show doesn't mean she thinks it's impossible.

"Yeah, I definitely think that it is possible, if you have that really strong instant connection and can get to know each other at a really fast pace," she said.  "For me personally I don't think that that is possible but I do think that for some people it is."

In addition, Adamson said she was personally surprised by the dismissal of Rozlyn Papa -- who was eliminated from the competition after allegedly engaging in an "inappropriate relationship" with producer Ryan Callahan, who was also fired.

"I never saw anything inappropriate going on with Rozlyn and the producer.  They did develop a friendship, and as far as 'inappropriate' goes that's a matter of opinion.  I didn't see anything that I thought was inappropriate and Chris Harrison even called it when he was talking to Rozlyn -- he only called it an 'inappropriate relationship,' so that can be taken so many ways," Adamson told Reality TV World. 

"That could mean he shared inappropriate information with her, it could mean they kissed, or it could mean [something] sexual.  But in my opinion when I watched the show I didn't take it as sexual, I took it for what he called it, an inappropriate relationship, which could mean a friendship that he gave inside information or something like that."

As for what's next, Adamson said she has no plans for Valentine's Day and doesn't know if she'd accept an invite to star in the next installment of The Bachelorette.

"That would be a really big decision," she told reporters.  "If I didn't have time to think about it I'd have to say no, there's just something really special about just normal dating.  But you know, it's always a possibility I guess."

"I don't think I'd be exciting enough for them!"
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